Speed Of Desperate
Malice Mizer
The Desperation of Unfulfilled Ideals
Malice Mizer's song "Speed Of Desperate" delves into the dark and intricate themes of unfulfilled desires, existential despair, and the search for meaning in a seemingly mechanized world. The lyrics paint a bleak picture of a world where expectations are futile, and the protagonist is trapped in a cycle of unending dissatisfaction. The phrase "からくりの世界" (karakuri no sekai) translates to a 'mechanized world,' suggesting a place devoid of genuine human connection and filled with artificial constructs.
The song's recurring imagery of '地上の地獄' (chijou no jigoku), meaning 'hell on earth,' and '止まらぬ悪態' (tomaranu akutai), meaning 'unceasing curses,' further emphasizes the protagonist's torment. The 'IDEAL' they have constructed is described as '無意味無残' (muimi muzan), meaning 'meaningless and cruel,' likened to a corpse. This metaphor powerfully conveys the futility and destruction of chasing unattainable ideals.
The lyrics also explore themes of self-reflection and self-love, as seen in the lines '鏡に映る 自分を 心の底から愛している' (kagami ni utsuru jibun o kokoro no soko kara aishiteiru), which translates to 'I love the self reflected in the mirror from the bottom of my heart.' This could be interpreted as a form of narcissism or a desperate attempt to find solace in oneself amidst external chaos. The protagonist's isolation is poignantly captured in the lines '一人残されて 気づけば道化師' (hitori nokosarete kizukeba doukeshi), meaning 'left alone, realizing I am a clown,' highlighting the tragic realization of their own folly and loneliness.
Ultimately, the song is a haunting exploration of the human condition, the relentless pursuit of unattainable dreams, and the deep-seated desire for eternal love and warmth. The repeated plea for '永遠を この愛を' (eien o kono ai o), meaning 'eternity, this love,' underscores the yearning for something everlasting in a transient world.