Lonely

Mark Tuan's song 'Lonely' delves into the complex emotions surrounding solitude and self-reliance. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person grappling with loneliness, yet finding a strange comfort in it. The opening lines, 'Two bottles for myself / I know it's bad for my health,' suggest a coping mechanism through alcohol, highlighting the character's struggle with isolation. Despite the unhealthy habits, there's a sense of resignation and acceptance, as the protagonist admits to preferring solitude over the company of others.

The chorus, 'I like it better when I'm lonely, lonely all alone / I never needed you to hold me, hold me keep me close,' underscores a paradoxical sentiment. While loneliness is often seen as a negative state, the protagonist finds solace in it, suggesting a deeper, perhaps painful, self-awareness. The repetition of 'lonely, lonely all alone' emphasizes the character's insistence on independence, even if it means enduring emotional pain. This could be interpreted as a defense mechanism, a way to avoid further hurt from failed relationships or unmet expectations.

The song also touches on the theme of self-discovery through solitude. Lines like 'Living in silence / Feels so timeless' and 'Being alone has a purpose' suggest that the protagonist finds clarity and meaning in their isolation. This introspective journey is not without its challenges, as indicated by the struggle with 'evil thoughts' and the need to 'escape.' However, the ultimate message seems to be one of empowerment through self-reliance, even if it comes at the cost of conventional happiness. Mark Tuan's 'Lonely' thus serves as a poignant exploration of the bittersweet nature of solitude and the personal growth it can foster.