Ah Bu Ben

Mazhar Alanson's song "Ah Bu Ben" delves into the complexities of unspoken love and the internal turmoil that accompanies it. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person who is torn between their feelings and the fear of expressing them. The opening lines, "Zor olsa da galiba dönüyorum sana / Gel dersen hemen," suggest a willingness to return to a loved one despite the difficulties involved. This sets the stage for a narrative of emotional conflict and longing.

The song's protagonist reveals a deep sense of self-awareness and vulnerability. Lines like "Sen beni tanımazsın / Severim de söylemem" highlight the internal struggle of loving someone from a distance, without the courage to confess. This unspoken love creates a sense of isolation, as the protagonist feels misunderstood and distant, even though they are emotionally close. The metaphor of being "yerle gök arası bir yerde" (somewhere between the earth and the sky) further emphasizes this feeling of being in limbo, caught between reality and dreams.

The chorus, with its repeated lament of "Ah bu ben kendimi nerelere koşsam / Saklansam bir yerlerde gizlice ağlasam," captures the essence of the protagonist's emotional state. They are constantly running, hiding, and seeking solace in solitude, yet unable to escape their feelings. The imagery of retreating to the shores and building dreams there suggests a desire for a peaceful escape, a place where they can freely express their emotions without fear of judgment. This song beautifully encapsulates the pain and beauty of unspoken love, making it a poignant reflection on the human condition.