Vices

Drowning myself every night
Me vs Me
It's always been my biggest fight
I've been so confused for so long
The answers always seem so far out of sight
So, I fill it up, fill it up one more time
When everything is wrong and things don't still feel right
I'm in a tunnel, but I can't see light!

I just want to feel whole again
So I can let you in
I just want to feel whole again
I just want to feel whole

Where is my self control?
Where is my self control?

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I just fed myself a lie
For too long
I never thought this would be me

But now I'm on the verge of self destruction
How could this happen to me?!
I've never been the type to run from anything
Run from anything!

So sick and tired of wondering where I would have gone
My father didn't raise me to become this
Where did I go wrong

There is not much left of me
I can't feel the ground beneath my feet
There is not much left of me

I let everyone around me down
And now I'm at it, at the bottom of the bottle just to plug out the sound
God, I need you now!

I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I just fed myself a lie
For too long
This is my vice, this is me weak

I need your love to erase this doubt
I need your heart to pull me out
Sometimes I feel like I will never learn
Cause the bottles always there when I have nowhere else to turn
Will I ever learn?
Will I ever learn!

I take another sip
The dark room that I'm in becomes diligently lit
This can't be all there is

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I just fed myself a lie
For too long
And the only one to blame is me

Who have I become?!
This is my desperate shout
Pull me out!
Pull me out!
God, I need you now!