July

Micky's song 'July' is a poignant exploration of the emotional turmoil that comes with a failing relationship. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who is deeply hurt and conflicted, yet unable to leave their partner. The opening lines, 'I've been holding my breath / I've been counting to ten / Over something you said,' immediately set the tone of tension and suppressed emotions. The protagonist is clearly struggling to keep their composure while their partner seems indifferent, 'throwing back beers' and leaving them 'alone in bed.' This stark contrast highlights the emotional disconnect between the two.

The recurring theme of fear of change is central to the song. The line 'You know I, I'm afraid of change / Guess that's why we stay the same' encapsulates the internal conflict. Despite recognizing that the relationship is unhealthy, the protagonist is paralyzed by the fear of the unknown. This fear is so overpowering that they would rather endure the pain of feeling 'not enough' than face the uncertainty of leaving. The repeated plea, 'So tell me to leave / I'll pack my bags, get on the road,' underscores their desperation for a clear directive, as they are unable to make the decision themselves.

The song also delves into themes of self-worth and resignation. The protagonist acknowledges their own shortcomings, 'I've done a lot of things wrong / Loving you being one,' yet they are still unable to move on. The repeated reminder from their partner that they are 'not enough' has taken a toll on their self-esteem, making it even harder to break free. The closing lines, 'You remind me every day / I'm not enough, but I still stay,' encapsulate the tragic cycle of emotional dependency and the struggle to find the courage to leave. Micky's 'July' is a raw and relatable portrayal of the complexities of love, fear, and self-worth.