Watching As I Fall

Mike Shinoda's 'Watching As I Fall' is a raw and introspective exploration of personal struggle, resilience, and transformation. The song delves into the emotional turmoil Shinoda experienced, likely influenced by the aftermath of Chester Bennington's death and the subsequent challenges faced by Linkin Park. The opening lines, 'Excuse me while I kiss the sky,' reference Jimi Hendrix's 'Purple Haze,' setting a tone of surreal introspection. The 'pocket full of lies' and the inability of others to 'look me in the eyes' suggest a deep sense of betrayal and disillusionment.

The chorus, 'They're watching as I fall, they're staring as I go,' captures the feeling of being scrutinized and judged during moments of vulnerability. Shinoda's admission of giving 'until my soul hurt' without revealing his pain highlights the often unseen sacrifices artists make. The line 'maybe I'm just falling, to get somewhere they won't' introduces a glimmer of hope, suggesting that the fall might be a necessary step towards a place of personal growth and understanding that others cannot reach.

Throughout the song, Shinoda grapples with the pain of holding on and the difficulty of letting go. The reference to 'singing with the fat lady' alludes to the saying 'it ain't over till the fat lady sings,' indicating a sense of finality and acceptance. The acknowledgment of unresolved issues from '15 years old' underscores the long-lasting impact of past traumas. Despite the pain and inconsistency, Shinoda's journey is one of resilience, as he navigates through his struggles to find a new path. 'Watching As I Fall' is a powerful testament to the human spirit's ability to endure and transform through adversity.