It’s Not My Fault

MILGRAM MU's song 'It’s Not My Fault,' performed by Arisa Kori, delves into the intricate interplay between innocence and guilt, self-perception, and societal judgment. The lyrics are a poignant exploration of a character who oscillates between claiming innocence and acknowledging the pain they cause. The repeated assertion 'わるくないもん' (I'm not bad) serves as a defensive mantra, suggesting a deep-seated need for self-justification and perhaps a denial of responsibility.

The song's protagonist seems to revel in their ability to manipulate situations to their advantage, as indicated by lines like 'ゆっくり はりをさして つくりかえちゃうの たまんない' (Slowly, I pierce with a needle and remake it, it's irresistible). This metaphor of piercing and remaking could symbolize the character's control over their environment and relationships, reshaping them to fit their desires. However, this control comes at a cost, as the character is aware of the pain they inflict, yet they dismiss it with a casual 'ごめん ごめん いたかったよね' (Sorry, sorry, it hurt, right?).

The song also touches on themes of jealousy and validation. The protagonist's need for others to 'みつをすって わたしのとこへとどけにきてね' (suck the honey and bring it to me) suggests a craving for attention and affirmation. This need is juxtaposed with their claim of being 'かわいそうだから' (always pitiful), indicating a complex self-image that blends victimhood with a sense of superiority. The repeated questioning of whether they are truly at fault ('まってまって わるくないよ' - Wait, wait, I'm not bad) highlights their internal conflict and the struggle to reconcile their actions with their self-perception.

Overall, 'It’s Not My Fault' is a rich tapestry of emotions and themes, exploring the delicate balance between self-justification and guilt, control and vulnerability, and the human need for validation amidst the pain we cause and endure.