Bullion

Millencolin's song 'Bullion' delves into the struggles of self-identity and the pressure to conform to societal expectations. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a young person, aged twenty-one, grappling with feelings of inadequacy and a sense of purposelessness. The protagonist feels weighed down by the monotony of daily life, symbolized by wasting time on 'compact discs and staly fish.' This imagery suggests a sense of stagnation and a longing for something more fulfilling. The mention of not remembering the last time they felt genuinely happy for an extended period highlights a deep-seated dissatisfaction with their current state.

The chorus reveals an internal conflict about self-perception and societal expectations. The protagonist questions whether they are 'odd' or 'not,' indicating a struggle with self-acceptance and the pressure to meet others' expectations. The line 'I'm so soft but still I'm not living up to what people want me to be' underscores the tension between their true self and the persona they feel compelled to present. This internal struggle leads to isolation, as they shut out the world to engage in solitary activities like playing Nintendo. The fear of not being understood by others further exacerbates their sense of loneliness.

However, the song takes a hopeful turn as the protagonist resolves to make significant changes in their life. The decision to 'change my life, change my plans, change my vans, even start to dance' signifies a desire for transformation and self-improvement. The repeated assertion that these changes are 'just for me' emphasizes a newfound commitment to self-care and personal growth. 'Bullion' ultimately conveys a powerful message about the importance of self-acceptance and the courage to live authentically, despite external pressures.