Itsuwari Neurose

My First Story's song 'Itsuwari Neurose' delves deep into the themes of identity, existentialism, and the search for meaning in a seemingly indifferent world. The lyrics are a poignant exploration of the protagonist's internal struggle, questioning their purpose and the authenticity of their existence. The repeated lines 'Kill me the person away so back' and 'Kill me the person long ago' suggest a desire to shed past identities and start anew, yet there's a palpable sense of frustration and confusion about how to achieve this transformation.

The song's chorus, with lines like 'Tell me the reason why you're alive' and 'Tell me the reason why you're proud,' underscores a desperate plea for understanding and validation. The protagonist feels disconnected from their own sense of self, as indicated by 'ima boku ga boku janaku natte' (now I am not myself anymore). This disconnection extends to their dreams and love, which have 'kiesatta' (disappeared), leaving them in a state where 'nanimo kamo imi ga nai' (nothing has meaning). The use of both English and Japanese in the lyrics adds a layer of complexity, reflecting the duality of the protagonist's internal and external worlds.

Culturally, the song taps into a universal feeling of alienation and the search for purpose, resonating with listeners who have experienced similar existential doubts. The phrase 'itsuwari neurose' itself can be interpreted as a 'neurosis of falsehood,' suggesting that the protagonist's mental turmoil is rooted in living a life that feels inauthentic. The song's intense and emotive delivery, characteristic of My First Story's musical style, amplifies the raw emotion and urgency of these existential questions, making 'Itsuwari Neurose' a powerful anthem for those grappling with their own sense of identity and purpose.