My September

The song 'My September' by Nastyona appears to delve into the complex emotions surrounding a relationship that has soured, yet lingers on. The lyrics suggest a dynamic where love has faded, but the connection remains, creating a sense of entrapment and melancholy for both parties involved. The repeated phrase '넌 날 사랑하지 않아' which translates to 'You do not love me' and its counterpart '난 널 사랑하지 않아' meaning 'I do not love you' set the tone for a relationship that is devoid of love but still unbreakable for reasons not explicitly stated in the song.

The metaphor of the '까만 열매', or 'black fruit', that was given and swallowed, symbolizes a gift or an event that has led to a permanent change, tainting their days with an everlasting gray. This imagery suggests that whatever happened between the two individuals has left a lasting impact, one that cannot be undone and has resulted in ongoing sorrow and a lack of vibrancy in their lives. The inability to leave or to be left by the other person hints at a deep interdependence or a shared history that is too significant to simply walk away from.

The line '난 마음껏 울지도 못했어' which means 'I couldn't even cry to my heart's content' speaks to a stifled emotional response, a resignation to continue living despite the unhappiness. There is a sense of spite or a desire for the other person to experience unhappiness as well, indicating a complicated mix of emotions that includes not just sadness and loss, but also resentment. 'My September' is a poignant reflection on the shades of gray that color relationships gone awry, where the remnants of what once was linger on, preventing complete detachment and healing.