madhouse

Nessa Barrett's song 'Madhouse' delves into the tumultuous experience of mental health struggles and societal pressures. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a psychological thriller, where the protagonist is both the star and the victim. Barrett uses the metaphor of a 'box office killer' to describe the intense scrutiny and sensationalism surrounding her mental state. The 'beautiful chemical meltdown' signifies the internal chaos and the inevitable breakdown, highlighting the fragility of her mental health.

The chorus, 'They gon' put me in a madhouse,' reflects the societal tendency to label and institutionalize those who deviate from the norm. The imagery of 'shove pills down my throat till I space out' underscores the often harsh and impersonal treatment methods for mental health issues. Barrett also touches on the contradictory nature of public perception, where she is simultaneously loved and slut-shamed, leading to a sense of being 'batshit crazy.' This duality questions whether the madness is a result of her own mind or the external pressures imposed on her.

In the second verse, Barrett explores the depths of her mental state, mentioning the loss of 'brains, serotonin, kerosene' and being 'diagnosed with seeing things.' This line suggests a chemical imbalance and hallucinations, common symptoms of severe mental health conditions. The invitation to 'take a peak' under the hood and the subsequent scare tactics reveal the raw and unfiltered reality of her struggles. The mention of almost taking her life and now holding the knife symbolizes a shift in control, albeit a dangerous one. The recurring question, 'But is it you or is it me?' encapsulates the confusion and blurred lines between self-perception and external judgment.