Paralyzed

NF's song 'Paralyzed' delves into the artist's personal struggles with emotional numbness and identity loss. The lyrics express a profound sense of disconnection from one's emotions and self, a theme that resonates with many who have experienced mental health challenges. The opening lines, 'When did I become so numb? When did I lose myself?' set the tone for a journey of introspection and questioning. The repetition of 'I'm paralyzed' throughout the song emphasizes the feeling of being stuck in a state of emotional paralysis, unable to feel or react to life's experiences as one should.

The song's chorus, 'Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things,' captures the essence of emotional numbness, a common symptom of depression and other mental health conditions. NF's lyrics suggest a longing to reconnect with his emotions and the 'real me,' indicating a sense of alienation from his true identity. The metaphor of being underwater but feeling on top of it, and being in a box that he locked himself in, illustrates the internal conflict and the feeling of being trapped within one's own mind.

The song also touches on the fear of living and the fear of dying, highlighting the existential angst that often accompanies mental health struggles. The line 'And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago' suggests a coping mechanism of suppressing emotions to avoid pain, yet acknowledging that those feelings are still very much alive and affecting him. NF's candid portrayal of his inner turmoil offers listeners a raw and relatable depiction of the battle against mental paralysis and the search for self.