Until I Know

Panchiko's 'Until I Know' delves into the complexities of uncertainty, inner turmoil, and the relentless pursuit of understanding one's emotions. The song opens with a sense of ambiguity and longing, as the narrator grapples with the uncertainty of a loved one's return. This uncertainty is compounded by a fear of recompense, suggesting a past conflict or unresolved issue that haunts the narrator. The repeated line, 'You know you always need this much,' hints at a deep-seated need or desire that remains unfulfilled, adding to the emotional weight of the song.

The chorus introduces a metaphorical 'Sun' that symbolizes hope or a new beginning. However, this hope is tainted by 'disease and disgrace,' indicating that the path to resolution is fraught with challenges. The narrator's struggle to control their heart and emotions is palpable, as they admit, 'I can't control this heart, it's in tow, it's a start, but I wouldn't really know until I know.' This line encapsulates the essence of the song—an ongoing journey towards understanding and emotional clarity that remains elusive.

The song's bridge and closing lines emphasize the narrator's relentless pursuit of resolution, stating, 'And I won't stop until you go.' This determination underscores the intensity of their emotional struggle and the lengths they are willing to go to achieve closure. The repetition of 'You know you always need this much' serves as a haunting reminder of the narrator's persistent need for understanding and resolution. Panchiko's blend of introspective lyrics and evocative melodies creates a poignant exploration of the human condition, making 'Until I Know' a deeply resonant and thought-provoking piece.