Encoder

Pendulum's song 'Encoder' delves into the complexities of unspoken emotions and the internal battles that often accompany them. The lyrics paint a picture of a relationship strained by unexpressed feelings and miscommunication. The opening lines, 'You couldn't even show yourself, out / You were so held up by your thoughts,' suggest a person who is so consumed by their internal struggles that they are unable to be present or open with their partner. This sets the stage for a narrative of division and emotional distance, as highlighted by the line, 'Along the way we got divided.'

The recurring theme of not being able to 'look me in the eyes' underscores the difficulty of facing the truth and the vulnerability that comes with it. The act of dimming the lights symbolizes a desire to soften the harsh reality and create a space where difficult conversations can take place, albeit in the shadows. The lines 'So I'll dim the lights / When you take me, out on your side' reflect a willingness to support and stand by the other person, even in moments of discomfort and uncertainty.

As the song progresses, it becomes clear that the struggle to communicate has taken a toll on the relationship. The lyrics 'It took so long for me to speak, up / It was the hardest thing to say' reveal the immense effort required to voice one's feelings. The sense of missed opportunities and regret is palpable, especially in the lines 'For everything that could have been / But at least we took a ride.' Ultimately, the song concludes with a sense of resignation and acceptance, acknowledging that 'There's no relief in bitterness / Might as well let it die.' This final sentiment suggests that sometimes, letting go is the only way to find peace.