Lavender

Penelope Scott's song 'Lavender' delves into the complexities and emotional turmoil of love, particularly focusing on the singer's struggle to express her feelings. The opening lines reveal a sense of inadequacy in conveying happiness through songwriting, suggesting that her attempts to express love often come out wrong, sounding sad or angry. This sets the tone for a song that explores the frustration and self-doubt that can accompany romantic relationships.

The lyrics reflect a deep-seated fear of abandonment and the anxiety of not being enough for the person she loves. The repeated question, 'What am I gonna do when you leave me too?' underscores a sense of impending loss and helplessness. This fear is compounded by the singer's self-criticism, as she questions whether she is destined to be 'just someone's girl' and whether her best efforts are ultimately insufficient. The repetition of 'I'm in love' juxtaposed with these doubts creates a poignant contrast, highlighting the bittersweet nature of her emotions.

The mention of being 'in love with a drugger' adds another layer of complexity to the song. It suggests a relationship that may be unhealthy or unbalanced, further complicating the singer's feelings. The line 'It takes a very special kind of glitch to make a monster out of something so kind' implies that the relationship has been tainted by external factors or internal flaws, turning something that should be beautiful into a source of pain. This metaphor of a 'glitch' speaks to the unpredictable and often uncontrollable nature of love, making 'Lavender' a deeply relatable and emotionally charged song.