Why Do I Even Try

Plush's song 'Why Do I Even Try' delves into the emotional turmoil of trying to move on from a past relationship that continues to haunt the protagonist. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who is overwhelmed by memories and the lingering presence of a former lover. The opening lines, 'It was always quiet / And now everything's way too loud,' suggest a stark contrast between the peace before the relationship and the chaos that ensued after its end. This sets the stage for the recurring theme of being unable to escape the past, as the protagonist sees their ex's face 'in every crowd' and feels their presence 'in the middle of the night.'

The chorus, with its repeated question 'Why do I even try?' captures the essence of the protagonist's despair and sense of futility. Despite their efforts to move on, they feel trapped and unheard, as emphasized by the line 'I scream in pain, but God, he can't hear me.' This metaphorical cry for help underscores the depth of their suffering and the feeling of abandonment, not just by their ex but also by a higher power. The struggle to find inner strength is palpable, and the repeated wish to 'walk away' highlights the internal conflict between wanting to let go and being unable to do so.

The song also touches on themes of betrayal and resignation. The lines 'When did you give up on me? / 'Cause I'm giving up on you' reflect a turning point where the protagonist acknowledges the end of the relationship and their decision to stop trying. This moment of realization is both liberating and heartbreaking, as it signifies the end of hope and the beginning of acceptance. Plush's raw and emotive delivery of these lyrics adds to the song's powerful impact, making 'Why Do I Even Try' a poignant exploration of love, loss, and the struggle to move forward.