Be My Escape

I've given up, I'm giving up slowly
I'm blending in so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last call that you mentioned
Is my one last shot at redemption
'Cause I know to live, you must give your life away

And I've been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way in knowing
Where to go
Promise I'm going, because

I Gotta get outta here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I Gotta get outta here
And I'm begging you
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I'm giving up
I'm doing this alone now
'Cause I've failed and I'm ready to show now
Show me the way and I'm trying to get there
And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

And I've been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way in knowing
Where to go
Promise I'm going, because

I gotta get outta here
Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake
I gotta get outta here
And I'm begging you
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave

'Cause I've been housing all this doubt
And insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way in knowing
Where to go
Promise I'm going, because

I gotta get outta here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I'm begging you
I'm begging you
I'm begging you to be my escape

I fought you for so long
I should have let you in
Oh, how we regret those things we do?

And all I was trying
to do was save my own skin
But so were you
So were you