Even Exist

Rodezel's song 'Even Exist' delves deep into the themes of self-identity, isolation, and the struggle for recognition. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who feels invisible and misunderstood, despite having everything that others might need. The recurring motif of dressing in all black and hiding under a hoodie symbolizes a desire to remain unnoticed, reflecting a deep-seated insecurity and a sense of not belonging. This imagery is powerful, as it conveys the protagonist's internal battle with overthinking and the comfort they find in rainy days, which metaphorically represent their melancholic state.

The chorus highlights a poignant contradiction: the protagonist has everything that someone might need, yet they feel as though they don't even exist. This paradox underscores the emotional turmoil of feeling unappreciated and unseen. The lines 'You wanna take my time, runaway runaway from my life / Then you comeback when I'm better now, I don't mean to try' suggest a cyclical relationship where the protagonist is only valued when they are at their best, further exacerbating their feelings of worthlessness and invisibility.

The song also touches on the theme of change and contemplation. The protagonist expresses a desire to be different and not conform to the expectations or behaviors of others. This is evident in the lines 'I'm just changing, contemplating / I don't wanna be like you.' The repeated acknowledgment of pain and the lack of genuine care from others ('I know you see my pain / I can tell now / But you don't really care') adds another layer of emotional depth, highlighting the protagonist's struggle for empathy and understanding in a world that often feels indifferent.