Reasons Not To Die

Ryn Weaver's song 'Reasons Not To Die' is a poignant exploration of mental health struggles, self-doubt, and the importance of supportive relationships. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone grappling with deep emotional turmoil, feeling like a burden to those around them. The opening lines, 'I'm sorry the party you threw for me / Was met with such a royal hitch,' set the tone for a narrative of self-perceived failure and guilt. Weaver's raw honesty about her feelings of being 'a bitch' and 'selfish' underscores the internal conflict many people face when dealing with mental health issues.

The song delves into the protagonist's battle with fear, self-hate, and a 'stalemate with he-who-shall-not-be-named,' possibly referencing a toxic relationship or a personification of their inner demons. Despite these struggles, the lyrics highlight the unwavering support of friends who 'hide the bullet from the gun' and 'won't cage me in.' This metaphor suggests that these friends prevent the protagonist from succumbing to their darkest thoughts while respecting their need for freedom and autonomy. The repeated acknowledgment of these friends' efforts emphasizes the critical role of a support system in overcoming personal battles.

Weaver's lyrics also touch on the cyclical nature of depression, with lines like 'I get so stuck in my head / Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide.' The imagery of 'slipping from the ledge' and 'praying to gods I don't believe in for a sign' captures the desperation and search for hope in moments of despair. Ultimately, the song is a tribute to the 'renegades who never run'—those who stand by their loved ones through thick and thin. 'Reasons Not To Die' is a powerful reminder of the impact of compassion and the importance of finding reasons to keep going, even in the darkest times.