If You Knew What I Was Thinking

I’ve been alive too long
To be making mistakes
Like I am a child with a doll
I’ve been trying to break
I’m recklessly, inexorably
Hurling myself to the edge of the precipice
I’m stronger than this

You’re in the room with the one
You’ve been telling us all about
‘Cause she’s nice and she’s fun
But I’m trying to figure out
This fear I feel when you’re near
Nervous on purpose
The worst thing is I don’t want this feeling to stop

If you knew what I was thinking
I wonder if you’d run
I wonder if you’d hate me
And all that I’ve become
If you knew what I was thinking
Would we both be losing sleep?
‘Cause you play me like I’m music
And leave me on repeat
If you knew what I was thinking, thinking
If you knew what I was thinking, oh

This isn’t right, all the time
We’ve been missing our chance
Like ships in the night, we have passed
We’ve been keeping our silence
But what if trajectories shift
Spin with the wind of coincidence
I won’t miss considering this

If you knew what I was thinking
I wonder if you’d run
I wonder if you’d hate me
And all that I’ve become
If you knew what I was thinking
Would we both be losing sleep?
‘Cause you play me like I’m music
And leave me on repeat
If you knew what I was thinking, thinking
If you knew what I was thinking, oh

One day everything could change
Well stranger things have happened haven’t they?
But I’ll keep this in my dreams
Because that’s the place it should be

If you knew what I was thinking
I wonder if you’d run
I wonder if you’d hate me
And all that I’ve become
If you knew what I was thinking
Would we both be losing sleep?
‘Cause you play me like I’m music
And leave me on repeat

If you knew what I was thinking
Well maybe you would run
And maybe you would hate me
And everything I’ve done
So I won’t tell you what I’m thinking
I’ll hold it in my heart
I’ll paint it like a picture
My perfect work of art
All these things that I’ve been thinking, thinking

If you knew what I was thinking, oh
You knew what I was thinking, thinking
If you knew what I was thinking, oh