Even Though I Say

Saint Asonia's song 'Even Though I Say' delves deep into the themes of personal struggle, change, and the often painful process of self-reflection. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone grappling with their past mistakes and the trail of lies that seem to follow them. The protagonist acknowledges their awareness of right and wrong, yet feels trapped by the irreversible damage they've caused. This sense of entrapment is juxtaposed with a relentless drive to keep trying, as it provides a sense of vitality and purpose.

The chorus highlights a poignant realization: despite the protagonist's efforts to change, the people around them remain the same. This creates a sense of frustration and helplessness, as they become a scapegoat for others' misery. The line 'And if you're looking at me like I'm the cause of you live in hell, take a look at yourself' serves as a powerful reminder that blame is often misplaced, and self-reflection is necessary for true understanding and growth.

The song also touches on the emotional toll of these struggles. The protagonist feels small and overwhelmed, sinking deeper into despair with each passing moment. The imagery of getting closer to the edge and the fear of falling encapsulates the precarious nature of their mental state. Despite the lies and the pain, there's a glimmer of hope in the repeated attempts to make things right, even if it's just for the fleeting feeling of being alive. 'Even Though I Say' is a raw and honest exploration of the complexities of personal growth and the often harsh reality of human relationships.