Deserving

Serj Tankian's song 'Deserving' delves into the complex emotions surrounding love, self-worth, and the fear of abandonment. The lyrics reveal a narrator who feels unworthy of their partner's love and is convinced that they will eventually desert them. Despite this, the partner continues to place their faith in the narrator, highlighting a recurring theme of unconditional love and trust. This paradox creates a tension between the narrator's self-doubt and the partner's unwavering belief in their relationship.

The repetition of the lines 'I don't deserve you, why can't you see / I will desert you, why don't you leave' underscores the narrator's internal struggle. They are caught in a cycle of self-deprecation and fear, unable to understand why their partner remains committed. However, the partner's consistent faith in love suggests a deeper, more resilient bond that transcends the narrator's insecurities. This dynamic is further emphasized by the lines 'You put your faith in love all the time,' indicating that the partner's love is a constant, stabilizing force.

In the latter part of the song, the narrator begins to acknowledge the strength of their relationship, singing 'I believe that you, you and me, you and me / We've achieved a love that we, we can see.' This shift in perspective suggests a growing recognition of the mutual love and support that defines their bond. The closing lines, 'Go find your path, take me with you / I will make sure no one hurts you,' reflect a newfound commitment to protecting and nurturing their partner, despite their lingering doubts. Ultimately, 'Deserving' is a poignant exploration of the interplay between self-worth and the transformative power of love.