My Own Life

Shaila's song 'My Own Life' delves into the complex emotions of self-discovery and the struggle to live authentically. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person who feels disconnected from the world and their own life. The opening lines, 'Far away from home / From the treasures that belong to my mind / To my heart,' suggest a sense of alienation and longing for a place or state of being that feels true to oneself. This theme of internal conflict is further emphasized by the repeated mention of hating the world and the self, indicating a deep-seated frustration and dissatisfaction with the current state of affairs.

The chorus, 'So try to understand me when I say / That here behind us there's a train in this parade who's passing by,' serves as a metaphor for the fleeting nature of life and the opportunities that pass us by if we remain paralyzed by fear and indecision. The train symbolizes the constant movement and progression of time, urging the listener to seize the moment and live their dreams. The artist's resolve to 'try to live my dreams for a long long time' and 'draw a picture of this big boy's sad old soul' reflects a desire to capture and express the essence of their true self, despite the challenges and fears that come with it.

The recurring theme of fear, particularly the fear of living one's own life, is a powerful reminder of the internal battles many people face. The lines 'All this time I've been against I / Being afraid of live the world outside / Being afraid of live in my own life' highlight the struggle between conforming to societal expectations and embracing one's individuality. The song ultimately encourages listeners to confront their fears, reject external pressures, and pursue a life that is true to their own values and desires. Shaila's poignant lyrics and emotive delivery make 'My Own Life' a compelling anthem for anyone grappling with the complexities of self-acceptance and personal growth.