Five

I wanna watch the universe expand
I wanna break it into pieces
Small enough to understand
And put it all back together again
In the quiet of my private collection

It feels like an out of body experience
But something gets lost from a safe distance
And now I can't put my mind to rest
And I can't help but second-guess
Living behind this one-way mirror

I'm hypnotized by this anomaly
Such strange uncharted territory
A white flag waves in the dark
Between my head and my heart
My armor falls apart

As if I could let myself be seen
Even deeply known
Like I was already brave enough to let go

And now I want to generously loose
This energy that I've been hanging onto so desperately
I finally feel the universe expand
It's hidden in heartbeats, exhales
And in the hope of open hands