Blonde Hair, Black Lungs

When you told me you were leaving
Well I couldn't feel my mouth
Cause all I'll ever be is someone else
As I watched you walk away
I felt something in me change
My heart froze over
All emotion dripped away

So I drove home at a hundred miles an hour
Just to see what it feels like to fly
And I crashed my car into someone else's backyard
Just to see what it feels like to die

When you told me you missed me
Well I couldn't close my eyes
Cause I realized what it felt like to die
Cause all you'll ever be is a nightmare and a wet dream
A reason to smile from 6 feet underground

So I drove home at a hundred miles an hour
Just to see what it feels like to die
And I crashed my car into someone else's backyard
Just to see what it feels like to die

So bathe me in pale flesh
Promise that I'll never be good again
And I hope you miss me when I'm gone
Cause I can't hold on for too long
And I'm so scared of dying alone
That I'll kill myself right here, right now
And I'll die