Depressed Because Of You

Takayan's song 'Depressed Because Of You' delves deep into the emotional turmoil and existential struggles faced by individuals dealing with depression and social isolation. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person who feels utterly exhausted and disconnected from the world around them. The opening lines, 'koko made iki shite otsukaresama / ii yo, jinken nante sonzai shinai,' suggest a sense of fatigue and a belief that human rights or personal worth are non-existent. This sets the tone for a narrative steeped in feelings of worthlessness and despair.

The song continues to explore themes of mistrust and self-loathing. The lines 'subete mendoukusai / mou daretomo kakawaritakunai yo' express a desire to withdraw from all social interactions, highlighting the protagonist's overwhelming sense of burden and frustration. The mention of 'kageguchi matsuri' (a festival of backbiting) and the inability to trust others further emphasizes the isolation and paranoia that often accompany depression. The protagonist's self-hatred is palpable, especially in the line 'demo sonna boku ga ichiban kirai na no,' where they admit to hating themselves the most.

Takayan also touches on the existential question of purpose with 'nan no tame ni ikiteiru no? / omae nanka no dorei janai no,' questioning the very reason for their existence and rejecting the idea of being a slave to someone else's expectations. The imagery of 'kyomu ga shinyuu' (nihilism as a best friend) and 'oya, kattaa naifu' (a knife bought by parents) paints a stark picture of the protagonist's mental state, where even their closest relationships and tools for survival are tinged with pain and emptiness. Despite the bleakness, there is a glimmer of hope in the line 'sono ikioi de ii / utsu kara wa nigereba ii kara,' suggesting that escaping from depression, even if momentarily, is a valid and necessary pursuit.