All I Ever Am
The Cure
I think too much of all that's gone
Of how it was before my thoughts obsessed with choices made for sure
In ignorance of history
And consequence as more and more
I misremember hopeleslly
The way love turned out
Every time was never quite enough
I lose all my life like this
Reflecting time and memories
And all for fear of what I'll find
If I just stop and empty out my mind
Of all the ghosts and all the dreams
All I hold to in belief
That all I ever am
Is somehow never quite all I am now
I think too much of all to come
Of how it will be after I give up
My weary dance with age and resignation moves me slow
Toward a dark and empty stage
Where I can sing the world I know
The way love turns out
Every time will never be enough
I waste all my world like this
Intending time and memories
And all for fear of what I'll find
If I just stop and empty out my mind
Of all the ghosts and all the dreams
All I hold to in belief
That all I ever am
Is somehow never quite all I am now
And all for fear of what I'll find
If I just stop