In The Car Outside

Hi, Beth
Oh, I was just calling you to chat with you
I'm probably going to have to get up
At the buttcrack of dawn tomorrow
Oh, I hear Patsy backed out on ya tomorrow
Is she—
Damn it, John (hmm?)
I lost that frickin' steel line (ugh)
Shit!
Okay, it's alright
Go fucking find it
Ah, shit, I'm lookin' man (haha, fuck)
See, I told you my head don't work right
Yeah, you don't have to tell me that

I'm in the car, I just needed to clear my head
She's in the house with the baby crying on the bed
She's got this thing where she puts the walls so high it doesn't matter how much you love
It doesn’t matter how hard you try

We got a place with a fence and a little grass
I put this film on the windows, and it looks like chapel glass
But when she turns, it's like the shadow of the cross
Don't cast no blessing over our lonely life
It's like waiting for a train to pass, and I don't know when it'll pass

But I remember whеn she used to set thе room on fire with her eyes, swear to God
It's like a flood of grief and sorrow from a haunted life when she cries
Like a train, it's a lot

I dropped a line to a flickering high school flame
We laughed about all the ways that our lives had changed
She's up the road, about 35 miles north, got two little boys in school
Just had a real bad divorce
And in a moment of weakness

I told her if she ever needed a helping hand, I would lend, swear to God
It's like the part of me that's screaming not to jump gets lost in the sound of the train
It's a lot

Trying hard
Not to care
Swear to God

I'm in the car outside
I'm in the car outside
I'm in the car outside
I'm in the car outside