Twinkle Lights

The Sonder Bombs' song 'Twinkle Lights' delves into the deeply personal and often painful experiences of growing up and dealing with trauma. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of the protagonist's journey through adolescence and early adulthood, marked by moments of intense emotional and physical struggle. The recurring line, 'There’s nothing really wrong with me, I’m just choking almost constantly,' serves as a poignant metaphor for the suffocating feeling of unspoken pain and unresolved trauma.

The song begins with the protagonist reflecting on their life at 14 years old, a time when they had to confront significant challenges and make difficult decisions. The lyrics, 'At 14 years old I finally had to say no,' suggest a moment of empowerment, yet it is tinged with sadness as the protagonist acknowledges their premature loss of innocence. The mention of watching a best friend lose her mind adds another layer of helplessness and sorrow, highlighting the shared yet isolating nature of their struggles.

As the song progresses, the protagonist's experiences at 19 years old reveal a continued battle with trauma and the struggle for autonomy. The line, 'I was 19 years old but still not stronger than his hands across my throat,' is a stark depiction of physical abuse and the lingering impact it has on one's sense of self and strength. The repetition of the phrase 'there’s something really wrong with me' towards the end of the song signifies a shift from denial to a painful acknowledgment of the deep-seated issues that have been festering beneath the surface.

'Twinkle Lights' is a raw and honest exploration of the complexities of growing up with trauma. It sheds light on the internal battles that many face, often in silence, and the long road to healing and self-acceptance. The song's candid lyrics and emotive delivery make it a powerful anthem for those who have experienced similar struggles, offering a sense of solidarity and understanding.