Wishes

I wish I was a reader and I wish I was
The kind of daughter that calls her mom
With stupid questions or anything at all
And I wish that I was smaller or I wish I was
Better at being kind to the one body that I've got
After all, it keeps me breathin' till the day it just cannot

I wish I didn't feel like a burden
All the time
Wish I was certain
I wanna live this kind of life

I wish I didn't linger on every thought
Reshapin' every moment to the point of losin' touch
Wish I was in my body 'stead of hoverin' above (oh-oh)
And I wish that I was harder
And I wish I was less of a feeler so it wouldn't hurt so much
But I offer all my pillows and I give my bed to lay
I'm a shoulder for a cry until the tears melt me away

I wish I didn't feel like a burden
All the time
Wish I was certain
I wanna live this kind of life

I wish that I was smarter and I wish I could
Communicate a thought without being misunderstood
But it's better keeping quiet, yeah, it's easy staying put
And I wish I didn't cater when I know I should
Stop beggin' for forgiveness and start puttin' down my foot
I'm just used to people pleasin', yeah, I've gotten way too good
I think I have become the person that I said I never would

I wish I didn't feel like a burden
All the time
Wish I was certain
I wanna live this kind of life

I wish I didn't (I wish I didn't) feel like a burden
Ah, oh-oh
I wish I wasn't (I wish I wasn't) so scared of something
Oh-oh, ohh
I wish these wishes weren't all for nothing
All the time