An Artist

In 'An Artist,' TK (Ling Tosite Sigure) delves into the complexities of self-identity and the struggle to communicate one's true essence. The song opens with a stark admission: 'Hontōwa saisho kara nani mo mottenakatta' (I had nothing from the beginning). This line sets the tone for a journey through introspection and existential questioning. The artist reflects on the superficiality of life, likening it to a drama reflected in a mirror, where even emotions feel plastic and insincere. Despite his efforts to convey his inner world, he feels that his messages remain out of reach, encapsulated in the line, 'Boku no kaita yūkei mo mada todokanai na' (Even the sunset I painted can't reach you).

The recurring theme of inaccessibility is further emphasized with metaphors of locked doors and mazes, suggesting that true understanding and connection are elusive. The artist grapples with feelings of inadequacy and frustration, questioning whether his inner voice was ever truly transparent or understood. This is poignantly captured in the line, 'Boku no naka ni aru koe wa tōmeidatta no ka na' (Was the voice inside me transparent?). The imagery of a lost lamb and an unreachable map symbolizes the confusion and aimlessness that often accompany the search for self.

As the song progresses, the artist confronts the futility of conventional expressions of love and emotion, suggesting that they will eventually dry up and lose meaning. The line, 'Minareta kotoba to ai ja kimi wa itsuka kawaite shimau nda' (With familiar words and love, you will eventually dry up), underscores the transient nature of these sentiments. The song culminates in a sense of urgency, with the artist expressing a desire to be understood before he disappears, both literally and metaphorically. The haunting question, 'Boku no naka ni aru koe wa tōmeidatta no ka na' (Was the voice inside me transparent?), lingers, leaving listeners to ponder the true nature of self-expression and connection.