See It So Clear

There’s a photograph
In celluloid
Some little boy

A sweet sad paragraph
I wrote in the
School magazine

And if I close my eyes
Then it all comes back to me
Under sunny skies
When I was seventeen

But all these solid certainties
They had sadness underneath
And all these happy memories
They have spaces in between

Oh I see it now
See it now
Look back and see
From shadows
The loneliness
Reaching for me

I will give it a home
So it’s never alone
It was buried so deep but
I see it now

See it now
Look back and see
From shadows
The loneliness
Reaching for me
I will give it a home
So it’s never alone
Now there’s nothing to fear
I see it so clear

Online video
Low quality
I’m watching me

Why I’ll never know
What’s dead and gone
Keeps holding on

I try to shut my mind
But it still comes back to me
Under different skies
Now I’m 33

When all life’s solid certainties
Have been shaken to the core
No defeats, no victories
I won’t fight it anymore