Unlucky

And, it's not exactly like anybody cares, so
I care
Listen, I know this is the song from undertale
But like, fuck off
Just let me, let me talk for a second

Uh, it's kinda hard to explain
All these things I wanna say
So I'll say 'em all today right now
I wish I had a reason to live right now
I'm just waiting and waiting, and it will never come around
Just tell me what I did wrong
I promise I'm not still the same one
They tell me self love comes before the love of another
But I disagree, I hate myself until you don't
I need someone else to let me know my worth
And I know that it sounds selfish, but every day, it gets worse

Yeah, I just wanna feel better, I wanna make you feel better
Yeah, you deserve it more than me, but I'm a feel catcher
And my stupid brain works in weird ways that I don't get
I don't get these social cues and I don't go to these events
So I don't make any friends
And I love the ones I have, but we never make any plans
And I finally meet someone and we make like hella plans
And then everyone gets bored of me
Everyone means more to me than I mean to them
Like fuck, what did I do wrong?
Did I get some bad luck back when I was young?
And I'm losing time
Finally thought I won, just for fucking once
But I can't have shit I guess

Now I just been mad depressed in my room
Sitting all alone talking to no one
Hiding all this hair inside a hat that I don't fuckin' want
If I don't show anyone this song, I'm talking to a wall
Someone send me hearts or send me love, or send emoticons
Yeah, I just need some reassurance or know I have a purpose
At this point, I just wanna shove myself inside a furnace
I'm not a happy person and I don't make you happy either
Wish I could be worth it, stop fucking lying in my ears (haha)
I can tell that at least
I know when you're unhappy, I know when you're at ease
And I'm running from my dreams
And I'm only mean to people that deserve it, I ain't mean
I want someone to like me
And I lose it all and it's sad I know
And I wasted all this time and now I gotta go
And it's not even my fault, I was unlucky from the start
Dawg, I hate my fucking life, I want you to rip me apart