O' Lord! I Have My Doubts

In '$uicideBoy$'s 'O' Lord! I Have My Doubts,' the lyrics delve into themes of existential despair, substance abuse, and defiance against societal norms and religious beliefs. The song opens with Ruby slipping a roofie into a cream soda, setting a tone of reckless abandon and self-destructive behavior. The imagery of riding with an uzi and swerving with a pump paints a chaotic and dangerous lifestyle, further emphasized by the mention of serving bumps and loosening blunts. This chaotic lifestyle is a metaphor for the internal turmoil and numbness the artist feels, as he navigates through life with a sense of detachment and disillusionment.

The lyrics also touch on the artist's skepticism towards religion and the concept of an afterlife. Ruby expresses a lack of fear towards God, suggesting that he believes divine promises are empty. This nihilistic viewpoint is reinforced by the line, 'I'ma die one day, open up the gates to nothing,' indicating a belief in the futility of life and the absence of any higher purpose or reward. The repeated phrase 'I'ma keep on saying fuck it' serves as a mantra of defiance, rejecting societal expectations and religious doctrines in favor of a hedonistic and self-destructive path.

The second verse, performed by Yung Ooze, continues the theme of existential despair, with references to hearing voices, heroin use, and a sense of impending doom. The imagery of 'hundred blades on the Tahoe' and 'rebirth of the scarecrow' evokes a sense of menace and foreboding. Yung Ooze's struggle with mental health is evident in the line, 'You ain't seen a psycho 'til Lil Slick without his pills,' highlighting the precarious balance he maintains through substance use. The burdens he carries are overwhelming, leading to a sense of hopelessness and resignation. The repetition of 'on me' underscores the weight of these burdens, emphasizing the inescapable nature of his struggles.

'O' Lord! I Have My Doubts' is a raw and unfiltered exploration of the darker aspects of human existence, capturing the pain, disillusionment, and defiance that define the $uicideBoy$'s musical and lyrical style.