I'm Sick Of Trying

Vaboh's song "I'm Sick Of Trying" delves into the tumultuous emotions of unrequited love and the self-destructive behaviors that often accompany such feelings. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a relationship marred by emotional turbulence, where love and hate coexist in a chaotic dance. The imagery of a 'love rollercoaster' and 'rage in your veins' suggests a volatile relationship, filled with intense highs and lows. The protagonist's partner is depicted as someone who is deeply affected by jealousy and uses substances to cope with their emotional instability, further complicating the relationship dynamics.

The song also explores the profound loneliness that can exist even within a relationship. The lines "You feel like you've been alone for so long / And you're trying real hard / Yet he just won't love you like you love him" highlight the pain of loving someone who cannot reciprocate those feelings. This unfulfilled love leads to a sense of isolation and despair, making the protagonist feel even lonelier when they are with their partner. The repeated notion that the partner 'must mistreat the things that he loves' underscores a pattern of emotional abuse and neglect, suggesting that the protagonist deserves better than the 'bullshit story' they are being fed.

In the latter part of the song, Vaboh shifts focus to his own struggles with substance abuse and feelings of being lost. The references to 'lines of cocaine' and 'driving down swerving I'm so drunk' depict a lifestyle of excess and escapism. The protagonist acknowledges that they are 'better off alone with all my white lines,' indicating a preference for numbing their pain rather than facing the harsh realities of their emotional turmoil. The song's raw and honest portrayal of these themes resonates with listeners who may have experienced similar feelings of unrequited love and self-destruction, making it a poignant reflection on the darker aspects of human relationships and personal struggles.