AUDIT (feat. Tsurumaki Maki)

WeevilDoing's song "AUDIT (feat. Tsurumaki Maki)" delves into the harrowing journey of a man who appears to have it all—a successful business, a loving wife, and a seemingly perfect life. However, beneath this facade lies a struggle with addiction and emotional turmoil. The protagonist's life is meticulously calculated, much like an abacus, but his emotional world is in disarray. He admits to having a way with words but not with emotions, hinting at a deep-seated inability to cope with his feelings in a healthy manner.

The song's narrative reveals the protagonist's reliance on alcohol as a coping mechanism. He acknowledges his addiction, describing it as a silver bullet and a self-prescription. Despite his awareness of the problem, he continues to drink, letting his inhibitions go. The repetition of the phrase "Nobody has to know" underscores his desire to keep his struggles hidden, maintaining the illusion of a perfect life. This secrecy and denial only exacerbate his addiction, leading to a cycle of self-destruction.

As the song progresses, the protagonist's addiction spirals out of control. He admits to lying about his efforts to quit and recognizes his own excuses. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of his descent, from the initial stages of drinking to the point where it consumes him entirely. The climax of the song is a tragic car accident, a direct consequence of his impaired state. The imagery of the crashing sound of metal and the bleeding from his nose is stark and visceral, symbolizing the ultimate cost of his addiction. The song ends on a note of despair and regret, with the protagonist realizing the irreversible damage he has caused, both to himself and to others.