Shinitai

ザアザア (Xaa-Xaa)'s song 'Shinitai' delves deep into the harrowing experience of existential despair and the overwhelming feeling of worthlessness. The title itself, which translates to 'I Want to Die,' sets a stark and somber tone for the entire piece. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone suffocating under the weight of their own emotions, feeling crushed by an invisible force pressing down on their chest. This metaphor of physical suffocation is a powerful representation of the mental and emotional anguish the protagonist is experiencing.

The repeated phrases 'Nanimo nai' (Nothing) and 'Shinitai' (I want to die) emphasize the protagonist's sense of emptiness and hopelessness. They feel as though they have nothing to offer and are unable to change their circumstances, despite numerous attempts. This sense of futility is further highlighted by the comparison to others who seem to manage just fine, deepening the protagonist's feelings of inadequacy and misery. The plea for help, 'Aa dareka tasukete yo ima sugu ni' (Ah, someone help me right now), underscores the desperation and immediate need for relief from their suffering.

The song also touches on themes of social isolation and rejection. The protagonist feels unwanted and useless, as expressed in lines like 'Aitsu wa honto tsukaenai' (That person is really useless) and 'Kiete yo! Nan da yo? Kuru na yo' (Disappear! What is it? Don't come). This rejection from others exacerbates their internal struggle, making them feel even more isolated and desperate. The repeated cries of 'Itai' (It hurts) towards the end of the song encapsulate the intense emotional pain that the protagonist is enduring, making 'Shinitai' a raw and poignant exploration of mental anguish and the cry for help that often goes unheard.