I'll Never Fall In Love With Myself

Zeph's song 'I'll Never Fall In Love With Myself' delves into the complex and often painful journey of self-acceptance. The lyrics reveal a deep-seated struggle with self-worth and identity, as the narrator grapples with the superficial judgments and misconceptions imposed by others. The opening lines, 'It was never more than the surface / So that's what I sought,' suggest a focus on external appearances and the belief that anything flawed on the outside is inherently unworthy. This perspective is further emphasized by the line, 'If the cover's torn, it's not worth it,' indicating a dismissal of anything that doesn't meet a certain standard of perfection.

The song also touches on the idea of a misrepresented self, as seen in the lines, 'Whoever wrote my description / I think they misspelled.' This metaphor suggests that the narrator feels misunderstood and mischaracterized, leading to a sense of being cursed to see themselves through a distorted lens. The recurring theme of a story that will never be told highlights the frustration and sadness of feeling unseen and unheard.

As the song progresses, the narrator's struggle becomes more intense. The act of drawing on pages and blocking out words symbolizes an attempt to erase or ignore the hurtful labels and judgments placed upon them. The line, 'This won't have a happy ending / Not even parallel,' conveys a sense of hopelessness and resignation, as if the narrator believes that a positive resolution is unattainable. The final declaration, 'I'll never fall in love with myself,' encapsulates the core of the song's message: a profound struggle with self-love and acceptance, exacerbated by external pressures and internal conflicts.