BLEACH

ZillaKami's 'BLEACH' is a raw and unfiltered exploration of mental anguish, existential dread, and the search for meaning in a seemingly indifferent world. The song opens with the artist grappling with his fate, feeling forsaken and impatient. The imagery of running into his 'making' or 'Maker' suggests a desperate search for purpose or divine intervention, only to be met with silence and darkness, akin to being lost in the Paris catacombs. This metaphor highlights the artist's sense of entrapment and the haunting nature of his thoughts, which vanish as quickly as they appear, leaving him in a perpetual state of lowliness.

The chorus, 'I don’t wanna know / What I'm drinking needs no antidote / Just shut me up / And shut me down,' reflects a desire to escape from the overwhelming thoughts and feelings. The use of alcohol as a means to numb the pain is a common theme in the song, symbolizing a temporary respite from the relentless mental turmoil. This self-medication, however, is not a solution but a way to momentarily silence the chaos within.

In the second verse, ZillaKami delves deeper into his struggles with mental illness, describing the void inside him as 'vacant' and his attempts to fill it as unfulfilling. The battle between his mental health issues and his brilliance is a poignant depiction of the duality many artists face. The reference to smoking 'reefa' until the ashes tumble down his sneakers further emphasizes his reliance on substances to cope with his fear and anxiety. The recurring theme of uncertainty is encapsulated in the line, 'The only thing I know is that I don’t know,' highlighting the artist's existential crisis and the constant state of flux he finds himself in.

The final verse continues the theme of running away, this time from an unnamed chaser, symbolizing the inescapable nature of his problems. The metaphor of a broken clutch represents his inability to stay neutral or find balance, forcing him to constantly choose between moving forward or retreating. This relentless pursuit and the uncertainty of his decisions underscore the pervasive sense of instability and confusion that defines his existence.