dedgrl

ZillaKami's song 'dedgrl' delves into the dark and often taboo subjects of addiction, mental health struggles, and societal pressures. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of individuals grappling with their inner demons and the external forces that exacerbate their suffering. The song opens with a reference to a girl hooked on ketamine, a powerful anesthetic often misused as a recreational drug. This addiction symbolizes a heavy burden, a 'future broken heavy weight,' that takes a long time to overcome, if at all. The repeated mention of 'over pain' suggests a relentless struggle against emotional and physical torment.

The second verse shifts focus to a student burdened by debt, another form of heavy weight. This character's plight highlights the financial pressures that can lead to mental health issues, as indicated by the line 'bank can’t wait.' The cyclical nature of these struggles is emphasized by the recurring phrase 'head goes around,' suggesting a never-ending loop of despair and hopelessness. The imagery of 'floating in the orbit head in the ground' further reinforces this sense of being trapped in a cycle of pain.

The song also touches on self-harm and the stigma associated with mental health issues. The line 'started cutting on the veins' is a stark depiction of someone in deep distress, while 'parents shamed' points to the lack of understanding and support from those closest to them. The realization that 'nobody is the same' and that people are 'just playing you like games' speaks to the isolation and betrayal felt by those struggling with mental health issues. The song concludes with a grim acknowledgment of the finality of these struggles, encapsulated in the haunting line 'you're dead in the ground.'

'dedgrl' is a raw and unflinching exploration of the cycles of pain and despair that many people face. ZillaKami's stark lyrics and haunting imagery serve as a powerful reminder of the importance of empathy and understanding in addressing these issues.