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The firmament is so dark
When these feelings
Unleash and crash
Against my regret

They collide with the truth
Reality presses me
Eroding in my past
Only poison and toxicity

I was an unconscious alcoholic
And also an absent father
A very violent husband
Unfaithful and uncompromising

I didn't care about love
They only feared
My blows and insults
That uttered pure pain yeah

In my mind I find no peace
I live wandering in this abyss that is my Alcatraz
And there's no effective method
To redeem each sin that has degraded me

Reduced to nothing
Waiting eternally for their arrival
Better to give up because I know
They will never come

I must face my mistake
Still full of pain
There's no victim who loves
Their cruel aggressor
I deserve their resentment
It's my punishment today

Abandoned in this loveless asylum
Paying dearly for my colossal mistake
I made them suffer and ruined the lives
Of my children and my wife

I can't go back
And fix my sinful past
I'm an abuser
With no redemption

Lost between four walls
With unyielding anguish
I remember their looks
And they pierce my chest

I had to protect them
They begged me for peace and power
To have a quiet life
Without aggression but I failed

And now I'm paying dearly
For my malice and shamelessness
Completely abandoned
Forgotten without repair

I want to end my existence
To commit suicide or just die
I know I'm a coward
Who in his own hell couldn't resist

I must face my mistake
Still full of pain
There's no victim who loves
Their cruel aggressor
I deserve their resentment
It's my punishment today

I am a monster
Living in this hell
Where is my family?
I do not want to live
And I can not believe in
Everything I did

I must face my mistake
Still full of pain
There's no victim who loves
Their cruel aggressor
I deserve their resentment
It's my punishment today