Monochrome City

I want to pretend not to notice romance
Quietly, I want to forget you a little
The earphones are blue, the color of the blues
A little rudely, I'm at a cafe over there

Unread messages pile up in my pocket
I want to forget them, hiding them small as notes
A little break in the corner of my mind
Lock it and hide

Probably noticed the feelings of love from the beginning
But still don't want to admit it
The dilemma of wanting to keep it to myself
It's better to stay apart
Like a repeated spell
Maybe just a shadow

Ignoring the stirring in my heart
Wandering between two selves
Wanting to go back to the beautiful past
That can't be returned

Useless reasoning bubbles up in my mind
I'm bothered by the shirt without wrinkles
The heart flickering with jealousy
Overtakes the blowing wind

The burnt sugar
Opened for a few seconds
Memory flashes back
The humming from before

The background music in the store
Resonates in the corner of my mind
I wanted to remember dancing with you
The nostalgic melody

No equation fits
This question that won't be solved
Melts every time I try to solve it
As if under a spell
A marionette
It's better to stay apart
Falling as I chant the repeated spell

I decided not to call it love
On the first day
Tracing the worn-out red thread
Lining up the heels of my shoes
Still holding the key

Ignoring the stirring in my heart
Wandering between two selves
Wanting to go back to the beautiful past
That can't be returned
Wanting to go back
But unable to

I want to be loved, thinking
All the opposite sex around me will disappear
Just having paranoid thoughts again
My heart hurts

I'm a fool, truly, my broken mind
Calming down and becoming innocent again
Before I know it, I open the door
To our world, just the two of us
Looking up