Profundidad

This desire
pounding deep inside
and the rage won’t break free
if it’s left me mute
It keeps spreading
until it paralyzes
and completely takes over
my home
my nails
also my eyes
then my life
The wait is to know
if it doesn’t matter anymore
the level of depth

I understand that you
won’t wait
for my reason to wake
someday
Would you want to go with me and walk?
Untangle the serious with laughter?

Stroll on a sunny afternoon
blur what surrounds us

I’ll never forget
your desire to find
something more in me
I won’t forget your lies
or your beautiful self
Why does this rejection
of need fall on me
and not being able to believe
that if you love me
it’s not out of fear
of being like I am
holding on to loneliness
and rotting away.