初夏 (shoka)

No matter how much I cling on to wanting to die, it's all meaningless
I don't know, that everything with a form will eventually come to an end
With these absurd lyrics, inebriated and at its worst, just as they are
There are countless lives that cannot be saved

By hurting others, are you looking to be rewarded?
Saying: Just be happy, or something like that? Lol
Once again swayed by the early summer breeze
I end up singing about my arrogant ego
I don't know the right answer, so
Tell me
Tell me!

The words I once loved have been destroyed
I used to believe that someday I would be rewarded
This voice I've built up is a wrong answer for this world
"I hate that face of not knowing anything"
No matter how many times, tens, hundreds, thousand of times
I want to die

I, I, I was a fool, a puddling miniature boxed up garden
To seal my wound, comfort myself again and again
The disgusting side face
Even with words more beautiful than dreams before dawn
Fireworks in the city withering beautifully
I'm not there, after the festival

The words I couldn't say can't stop flowing out
Even if my wishes come true, it won't change
The promises we made are forgotten
I can't be stopped, there's just one person here
No matter how many thousands of times, tens of thousands of times, hundreds of millions of times
Could you just kill me?

If ethics makes reason
Is this hoarse voice justice?
If rightness always becomes kindness
Tell me
Tell me
Tell me
Answer me!

The person I once loved will no longer save me
I used to believe that someday I would be rewarded
The future I once envisioned has long become the past
Cause I don’t know anything, so I sing here
No matter how many times, tens, hundreds, thousand of times
I've breathed
No matter how many thousands of times, tens of thousands of times, hundreds of millions of times
I screamed