Yo no sé

I've cursed you every time I remember you
with every stupid thing that comes out from within me,
when I say your name, pure fire comes out
I don't know if out of anger or just damn habit,
how could you have had the heart
to lie to me so much and hurt me without reason,
I endure a lot and regret the sadness
today I understand that what's good for you
doesn't interest you,
I gave you what I had, with smiles and hugs,
honestly, I thought you were my cloud,
today they ask me why my heart
is cold and depressed from passion,
I answer them that's just how I am,
and then I wonder why I met you,
regretful or rather depressed,
I'm screwed and haven't decided,
but between us,
at night you continue to be what
you were for both of us,
honestly, being loved,
an illusion and now so shattered,
we go year after year,
and my best secret is that I miss you,
don't tell anyone about my sadness,
make it your last promise.

CHORUS
I don't know why you speak ill of me,
if you were the one who made me suffer,
if I left, it was because of you,
now I live life better without you.

How can I forget you,
all day I think of you,
I can't erase how much I suffered,
so many years I gave you of my life,
for you to crush my soul like an ant,
it could be anyone and forget you forever
but for you the feeling is different,
I've tried to move on with others the same
but I feel like I need more balls,
to surrender the same way as with you
my loneliness will be my only witness,
that's why sometimes you receive my calls
imagining you were my pillow,
I can't imagine you in someone else's arms
it pisses me off, I just go crazy,
I wish I could hate you, it's impossible
what you and I went through was incredible,
another chance would be a failure
like giving the gun to the one who shot you,
sometimes I feel like I can't take the crying anymore
and how to stop loving you so much.

CHORUS
You opened up my whole chest
it's damn hard to forgive you because you never loved me,
I say that, I know it from the heart,
because I'm here, and you're already out partying,
arguing in the mirror
I look crazy or rather like an idiot,
if I diss you it's because you deserve it
and if it pisses me off it's just for a few months,
although people never forget
I love you even if I swallow my spit,
if you want to see me you know where to find me
and if not, fuck it,
it would be nice if you felt the same
you work with a different mechanism,
in your face I say I don't love you
and sometimes that's what I prefer,
instead of you knowing how I feel
there hasn't been another in my life, I'm not lying,
I hope you don't forget about us
while you have fun with others.

CHORUS