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Despite everything, every tear shed, every lie,
every time you were mine, there's a feeling
and I don't deny that it was all a game, I can't grasp my dreams

I wish to see you, how much it hurt to lose you,
to think about living life with you
until death, even though I'm strong, bad luck mentions me
not even a thousand caresses could stop you
and yet you remain the first, I'll never forget you
I swear, even if I die, I know you were bad
and my heart was worth nothing to you, up to this time
I can't find the reason, I lost you damn it, I can't forget you
and I'll always sigh every time I remember you, how I wish
to go back a little and never have met you
so I could live in peace

And I still miss you, still think of you, still miss you
remembering the things we went through back then
I know I left you and sometimes I regret it
when I'm alone, I miss you, I know you did wrong
and I wish to forgive you but I remember
when you cross my mind, what will other people say
if I let you hurt me once again, I know I told you
to leave me alone and here I am confused
and distressed, thinking how things would have been
if we had fixed everything, what's mine would be yours
and you would be my wife, how I wish to tell you how I feel
how I wish you'd make me happy, I barely have the courage
to say that despite everything, I still think of you

and I still miss you, still think of you, still miss you...
I thought everything was very simple and to rebuild my life without you
now maybe I should give you another chance, don't you think?

and without denying it, every time I hear your voice, I sense you deny it
I know you suffer for both of us, that's why we keep seeing each other
with smiles covering our feelings, keep pretending
as only you know how, I never thought life would be so blue
I can give you everything but as a lover, why does this man
keep moving forward, what would you do differently if you came back
you'd still mock me like you did before, you didn't think
I'd miss you a lot, let me think for a bit
so I don't go crazy, I don't want to be sad either
maybe one day we'll be together again but for now
my world is upside down and I still miss you, still think
of you, still miss you... despite everything