Como quisiera

I'm fed up with living like this
I can't take this life anymore
The reality that haunts me won't fade away
I can't do anything right, I always try and always fail
And no matter how much I search for a fix, I can't find it
I'm tired of living alone and always failing
And with problems
And that nobody pays attention to me
When I'm alone, I can't hold back the tears
While my mom's out with other guys
And the worst part is that everyone already knows
That I'm worthless and that nobody gives a damn
I'm tired of living alone thinking about a drink
I'm sick of just being a bum
I can't take what they say anymore
I'm ashamed of what I've done with my life
But what if I just say goodbye forever
And erase my presence from their minds

How I wish everything was like yesterday
I feel abandoned and I don't know what to do
I think I'm fed up with my life
That's why I don't share my feelings with anyone

I don't know what I'm going to do since my girl left me
I feel like I'm going to hell walking alone
I was saving up for my rims
And now all I have left is a shitload of bile
Another Monday and I'm still getting old
And I'm stuck at home like an idiot
My spirits are down
I don't care because I don't even have friends
I'm tired of telling them I don't give a damn
I'm not comfortable at home or on the street
I have nothing left, I don't even know why I'm alive
Money doesn't matter to me, I don't care about being poor or rich
I imagine when I have to pay bills
I pawn what I have for a fifty-dollar bill
Better off dead, let it all end here
I take my own life, no other way.

(Motherfucker
this is the motherfucking crew)
(Well, whatever)..

How I wish everything was like yesterday
I feel abandoned and I don't know what to do
I think I'm fed up with my life
That's why I don't share my feelings with anyone

You know, I better think it over twice
Let me go solo for a couple of months
I feel like I can find the solution
Gotta man up, right, dude?
I shouldn't be running from problems
I face them in extreme situations
Opportunities come and go all the time
Gotta learn from this example

It's really cowardly to think this way
To take my own life, what a mess
A prisoner in this world with no way out
I know it's heavy, but I have to be a man
I'll have to start from the bottom
Put in the effort, screw the sadness
These are just things in life
Grab your balls and rise up

How I wish everything was like yesterday
I feel abandoned and I don't know what to do
I think I'm fed up with my life
That's why I don't share my feelings with anyone