Perdóname Ama

In the middle of the hallway, I felt so lost
Everyone was going crazy, I was feeling tossed
I was getting brave, fighting with my sister
Thought about ending it, my life’s a blister
Couldn’t understand, stuck in my ignorance
My mom would suffer for my whole existence
One day she sat me down and said, "Don’t be a fool
You think I like cleaning mirrors? That’s not cool
You don’t know about life," my mom would say
"Quit smoking and drinking, you’re wasting your days
If you don’t get it together, you’ll end up in jail
By your own choice, you’ll just derail
And those buddies who say they’re family
All they teach you is pure vulgarity
Tell me how many times they’ve prayed a rosary
All they show you is how to be a deadbeat

CHORUS
Forgive me, Mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you
You tried to warn me
But I couldn’t hear you
Forgive me, Mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you
The love you gave me
I won’t find anew

They sent me to school, I was hanging with the homies
At my friend’s house, I was drinking like a phony
We dove into everything, we had no remorse
The gang leader was me, I was the top force
But everything comes to an end, the cash ran dry
I wanted to pull a job, rob the liquor store, oh my
I didn’t want to use my gun, but Jorge got hyped
He shot the guy, and down to the floor he wiped
In the middle of the party, I didn’t know what went down
I ran to the other side, and the cops came around
They said, "Don’t move or I’ll blast you right here, clown"
After that day, a new life began
Riding in the squad car, thinking of my mom’s plan
Now I really messed up, she’ll be all alone
I remember my grandpa saying, "Don’t be a drone
There’s no gang or homeboy
That’ll pull you from the grave"

CHORUS
Forgive me, Mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you
You tried to warn me
But I couldn’t hear you
Forgive me, Mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you
The love you gave me
I won’t find anew

Locked up for the rest of my life
Suffering great pain for failing my wife
I don’t know what to do, my life’s gone astray
I’ll pay the price, there’s no way out today
On the street, I was tough, but here I’m just a name
I’m just a simple number, like other guys in the game
Even though it wasn’t my fault, I didn’t want to kill
If you’re in gangs, the same fate you will fulfill
Now I’m locked up, thinking what to do
If I had just stayed in school, doing good too
That’s why I tell you, stay on the right track
You gotta keep it real, keep studying, don’t look back
I broke my mother’s heart, the one who gave me blood
The one who brought me to life and took away my hunger, bud
I’ll suffer all my life, here I’ll meet my end
Only God knows how my fate will bend

CHORUS
Forgive me, Mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you
You tried to warn me
But I couldn’t hear you
Forgive me, Mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you
The love you gave me
I won’t find anew