Diarrea Mental

Dirty lonely pig
I go vomiting my tears
And seeing myself so useless
No one wants to give me a kiss
Because I stink like a dung heap
And even my snot falls off
I eat them and it's shameful
Not being able to share them
No one has ever dared
To give me a little love

I'm disgusting, a pig
Worse than a pig
Why is it

That if I look in the mirror
I get that bad taste in my mouth
And I feel like spitting
It must be out of anger that I spit
Because of my disgusting fate
I'm worse than an outcast
But if I reject the system
Or curse this society
If I shit on this world
I shit in my underwear
I hold back
I can't help it
I shit on everything

And fighting against my fate
I don't even allow myself
Not even the slightest smile
Because if I'm happy, I burp
I choke on my joy
And I always let out a fart
When I get happy
I can't resist it
I can't hold it in
Why is it

My being is a landfill
Pure garbage, a misery
A big pile of crap
My stomach churns
From the disgust I give myself
And I vomit from sadness
When I see what I am
My life is a horrible nightmare

Sometimes I dream
That I am pure fragrant perfume
Sensual
And that dream smells so good
Sweet ambrosia
Spring breeze
Who could sleep eternally

But then I wake up
I've already shit myself again
I've dirtied the bed again
And once again I find myself
In my stinking reality
With my fetid past
My putrid future
With my immense truth of bitter stench

I suffer from a horrible ailment
An ailment called mental diarrhea
I suffer from a horrible ailment
An ailment called mental diarrhea