Jigyakuka no Ally

In any case, I must leave
She was too hurt
Curtains that won't open
Broken cup
Cabbage that rotted in the sink
If I call it love, I forgive everything
Mother's scolding, broken nails
Embracing my terribly thin knees
Always blaming only myself

I was told to disappear somewhere
That's when I first realized
There's nowhere I want to go
I begged to stay here
Because I can see a small sea from the window
Father and this room decided
And happily talked about it in the past
Mother won't come home again tonight

I thought I could become one with that sea
And then I smiled a little

Ally of self-abuse
Singing between the waves
Love of the oppressed
Wished between the waves
Wanting to be embraced

I still regret that day I lied

Because only I know
I stopped being selfish long ago
Sometimes I smile very gently
That's my mother's true self
Father has been absent since I can remember
The reason is still dangerous
Tonight, I look at the moon while lying down
A barefoot girl only in my memory

I thought I could become one with that sea
Why did I wish for that?

Ally of self-abuse
Singing between the waves
Love of the oppressed
Wished between the waves

Regretting the day I lied to be embraced
I still regret it
Painful, without a smile
I ran through the path to the sea
A barefoot girl in the moonlight on the sandy beach
Forgive me for doubting that I wasn't loved
I don't need anything
This is my final selfishness

Ally of self-abuse
Floating between the waves
Love of the oppressed
Sinking between the waves
Will you embrace me
If I become one with this sea
I still love you
I love you